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She doesn't want your sympathy or anything that makes her feel a victim
He hears they're closer to a cure each day but how his body turns away to betray him
What they really want is for you to know just what it is when their
story's told that sustains them
It's a strength that somehow makes its way, through all the words and
the simple faith that they'll make it
I say cancer cannot cripple love or shatter hope or be anything but angry
When you work so hard to stay alive you need a reason pushing you to
strive to keep going
It's a message, it's a wakeup call, It's a plea to understand it all
and find meaning
For the scary rollercoaster ride, and the hope that never leaves my side for long
In each moment we're alive, with every chance we let slip by
There's something to remind us why we're here
In each moment we're alive, in what it takes to have survived
The beauty of our presence is so clear
I'm counting off my milestones and count on friends and loved ones to
stick by me
I'll keep holding on to miracles or better still the strength of will
to beat this
I can't believe I went through all this pain to say that it's been all
in vain, it's changed me
Now I spread the word of what I know, what it means to take it slow and grateful
For each moment we're alive, for every breath, with every sigh
How the world will be so different from now on
In each moment we're alive, we can fill our heart's desire
Toss caution to the wind and reach beyond
In each moment we're alive, we follow joy, we carry pride
Empowered to be all we're meant to be
In each moment we're alive, from everything that can inspire
Entrust that life will give us what we need
In each moment we're alive ……. !
Kissing in the kitchen, laughing in your arms
What a fine surprise this turned out to be
Didn't have an inkling, never had a prayer
That tonight would end with you loving me
Wild and sweet
I'm spinning swaying slowly to forever songs with you
Wild and sweet
Oh baby it's so crazy to fall so in love with you
I've been holding out for someone reckless and in tune
I want so much to believe this is real
You fill me up with pleasure, you play me like a song
All I know is how you make me feel
Wild and sweet
Lives entwined together with one heartbeat loud and true
Wild and sweet
I'm hearing brand new music that I can't stop dancing to
Thrill me with devotion, carry me away
I'm coming to you baby, won't you carry me away
Lying by the fire, watching embers die
There's only so much love for one night
We'll reach again tomorrow for the tenderness and flames
To have it be this way and know that it's right
Wild and sweet
I want to stay beside you for eternity, I do
Wild and sweet oh baby it's so crazy to be so in love with you
Wild and sweet (repeat and fade) ….
To find you now along my journey
Through the dark and dreams that came untrue
So many times I tried to call you
So many things I had to undo
I cast some stones along the way, to find you now
To find you now I learned to listen
for the truth, and never compromise
I had to wait, but not be waiting
so you could catch me by surprise
I had to take some leaps of faith to find you now
Now that I found you, I see I was so right to believe
That love's worth waiting for, now my heart is sure and complete
When a heart trusts it lets go, and this time I really know
How much there is to love, since I found you now
love finds its own way, with fear at its heels
we'll face it each day, from a promise to be together
We are one in everything that matters
We're shedding light in ways we never knew we could
I reach for you and find its me you're seeking
A sacred treasure kept alive for two
Held safe, within my heart, to find you now
Now that I found you, I see I was so right to believe
That love's worth waiting for, now my heart is sure and complete
When a heart trusts it lets go, and this time I really know
How much there is to love, since I found you now
To find you now
How can I tell you that I want to go now when I cannot find the words
The other kids are playing all around me, I'm alone & something hurts
I'm a boy who's feeling scared of all the noises in my head
I can hear you but I know you don't hear me
Mom is always so creative finding new things we can try
Dad comes home each night with hope, and fearful eyes he tries to hide
And my brother's on the run, I know it can't be too much fun
It's not easy living with a boy like me
There's a voice for Sam, and all the others like him
We need to understand
It's just who he is, he needs us to find a way in
I know you're trying and I feel all the love, but I still need to ask for more
When you see me spinning, and I'm jumping, to a rhythm all my own
Please be patient as you can, and accept me as I am
I'm still changing, so don't give up on me
Here's a voice for Sam, and so many others like him
We've gotta do all that we can
He needs us to know, somehow let it show, we're there for him
The ways of those like Sam, are full of mystery
Let's unlock the gates of silence,
Find a way to set these children free
Be a voice for Sam, and too many more just like him
Try to understand
It's just where he is, he needs us to find a way in
Be a voice for Sam (and all the others like me)
Be a voice for Sam (it's just who I am)
Be a voice for Sam (keep looking to find a way in)
Be a voice for Sam (don't give up on me)
Be a voice for Sam
My pregnant body showed its age
As I wrote to you on flowered pages
Long after you were born you nursed
On top of pillows you quenched your thirst
Content to know that just to be
Was just enough to fill your needs
If only that was something you could see
How I wish that you could see
How our life flowed so peacefully
How I wish that you could see
The way I held you sacredly
We tore your home in half and how I tried
To grow a brand new one together
Went everywhere with you in tow
A little girl that could never know
How I smiled along with the other moms
In a world I never did belong
If only that was something you could see
How I wish that you could see
How I stroked you while asleep
How I wish that you could see
The dreams I held for you and me
We grew so far apart we're ripping at the seams
Traded all our time for cyber pages
You left for a house where the grass looked green
I helped you take away all the memories
Nights I roam in your room with empty shelves
Stare at the walls for what they might tell
If only that was something you could see
How I wish that you could see
The things you want won't fill your needs
How I wish that you could see
What your closed heart has done to me
If only you could feel the connection
Between your words and what they do
How I wish that you could take in my affection
And know how much there is to lose
Searched so long to find you in the dark
Reached for you across some far-gone distance
You looked through me with vacant eyes
I stopped trying to compromise
Walked on eggshells 'til I found a way
To heal your life and keep you safe
If only that was something you could see
How I wish that you could see
The source of happiness you seek
How I wish that you could see
What's blind to you but clear to me
How I wish that you could see
Just how different life could be
How I wish that you could see
The love for you that lives in me
How I want for you, how I long for you
How I wish that you could see
I was curled up on the couch and I was feelin' fine
At a late-night party with a friend of mine
From the corner of my eye I caught your midnight grin
I felt my heart crack open and you slipped right in
WIth you comin' up beside me I could lose control.
But something keeps on telling me to take a hold
The memory of that must you carry in the room,
Can't stand it, can't stop it, gotta get a grip
Carried away, I think I'm getting carried away
I watch my heart just sail away
When I see I'm getting carried away
Honey being with you lit a spark so deep in me
That I'm feelin' burning passion of the third degree
I wanna keep my cool but it's a little late
I'd like to keep you guessing but I just can't wait
So I start telling you a story of some time ago
And I'm giving out the details you don't need to know
Something in the telling just comes over me
I say too much, try too hard, gotta get a grip
Carried away, oh no I'm getting carried away again
There's nothing left to do or say
When I know I'm getting carried away
I can't believe I'm goin' down this road of no return
I don't know how I end up here, again and again
Must be those demons dancing cartwheels in my head once more
Should I go there, should I stop here, or should I stay
Carried away, I'm always getting carried away
I know there'll be a price to pay
When I let myself get carried away
Carried away, let's you and I get carried away
Is there really any other way
Then to live a life that's carried away
Boundin' down Col A c c a r I u s, I see you break free and fly
Je dis tu vers me promener, Couldn't hold you back if I tried
Camping, hiking along by my side, You're what made it all right
Son of a gun, you were my friend,
Under the quince tree, a journey's end
So often now, I think about you, my faithful friend, son of a gun
Unexpected gift from Gun Pere, you arrived in my time of need
The alpha who opened our hearts, and made us a sweet family
Great lumbering giant with paws overgrown, gentle old soul sent to me
Son of a gun, you were my friend,
Under the quince tree, a journey's end
So often now, I think about you, Je t'aime beaucoup, son of a gun
Le Trieves' not the same anymore
L'Obion still remains but the monument's gone
It's spring, the garden's in bloom, Le Poulailler est vide
The tracks in the snow are all gone, it's just Baron and me
For nine years our paths were entwined, That's when you were my Gun
Son of a gun, you were my friend,
Under the quince tree, a journey's end
So often now I think about you, my faithful friend, son of a gun
Son of a gun, you were my friend,
Under the quince tree, the journey ends
So often now I think about you,
I won't forget, cannot forget, never forget Son of a Gun
There's laundry in the basement, dishes in the sink
The business line is ringing and I need some time to think
And I've got this little girl who needs to get to school
She's behind a solid meal or two and testing all my rules
She wants to go to daddy's house, she knows he won't say no
To anything her heart desires, I just watch how far it goes
His voice soothes from the telephone, I cant believe my ears
As I figure out which way to turn, I try to fight the tears
I am in a tug of war between the struggle and the score
I am fighting but I lose my way
Gotta stay on top of it, can't afford to lose it
Gotta find my way through it, gotta stay on course for now
I pick her up at his house, I peer inside the door
There's debris and dirty clothing in a mess across the floor
Run my fingers thru her matted hair, kiss a face I long to clean
There's so much I want to change here, and yet I must refrain
I am in a tug of war between the cause and who's at fault
I am sorry but I won't back down
Gonna see this to the end, gotta make it right again
Gonna draw the battle lines where they've never been before
Lying quiet in a bedroom of colors, and in their warmth we
share
a language, weaving spirit like a song
then suddenly his words through her mouth pierce my heart,
in so much that I want for her, he tears it all apart
I am in a tug of war between what's right and wanting more
Too many questions I need answers for
Need to make some choices now, need to see them clear somehow
Gotta keep on trying just to find a better way
I am in a tug of war, between the struggle and the score
I am in a tug of war, between the cause and who's at fault
I am in a tug of war between what's right and wanting more ....
FADE OUT ....
It rained that fateful day out on the shore
Then came the call that changed our lives forever more
Some old dream I'd never found made its way to come around
You belong here in the most important way
In no time at all we had you in our arms
Our brilliant shining light with all your charms
And in your eyes I still can see that you were born to be with me
You're my child in the most important way
CHORUS
For so very long I've wanted you
From the womb inside my soul
Through the labors of love and the signs from above
You are part of me in the most important way
How sweet our life's become now that you're here
On Daddy's shoulders riding high up in the air
It's a picture that I see that was clearly meant to be
I'm your mother in the most important way
I can't explain the way I've longed for you
From a heart that had to wait
For the labors of love and the signs from above
You are part of me in the most important way
Didn't think there'd be enough of my love to go around
But I've learned that a true mother's love knows no bounds
For so many nites I've dreamed of you
The child that's come to me
Through the labors of love and the signs from above
You are part of me in the most important way
You are mine in the most important way
The lady is a wildflower, sweeter than a moment in June
Her past may cast a shadow, but only if you find it too soon
She's paved so many roads on the way to her heart
She even has a picture of how love ought to start
It's clear to all that know her there's just one missing part
She's looking for a conscious cowboy
She's right at home in Montana, and raised a child all on her own
She knows the art of healing, from secrets of the earth she has sown
She'll spot him as he's jumping from his saddle to rest
She'll catch him as he's falling from an old lover's nest
She'll know him when he starts to feel he's looking his best
She's looking for a conscious cowboy
She's looking for a conscious cowboy
He doesn't need to wear the hat
She's just aching for the chance for authentic romance
She's looking for a conscious cowboy
She's ready for a real man, someone who can stand on his own
Who can speak with truth and laughter, and cherish time being alone
He's got to care about the land and be playing his part
In improving on our world and be gentle of heart
She's made the space and time so she's ready to start looking for a
conscious cowboy
She's looking for a conscious cowboy
With or without the hat
She's reachin' out her hands for some western romance
She's looking for a conscious cowboy
A conscious cowboy keeps on growing, always one to speak his heart
A conscious cowboy's love is flowing, just waiting for that right woman's spark
She's looking for a conscious cowboy, she can take or leave the hat
She's so ready for the dance of some cowboy romance
She's looking for a conscious, waiting for that conscious,
On to find her conscious cowboy
What she saw in him was an answer
He found himself in her eyes
Too young to know any better
They launched and promised their lives
With passion soon there were children
Tough times were not far behind
It must be the stuff they were made of
That kept all those big dreams alive
When you know that what you have is all you need
And the innocence of youth can plant the seed
With some luck and many prayers and a vision you can share
It can lead you through the love and the long run
As they toast to the years spent together
With the loved ones they've gathered tonight
And to all they have reached and have given
Because of a love that survived
When you know that what you have is all you need
And the innocence of youth helps to believe
With some luck and many prayers, and a vision you can share
It can lead you to the love and the long run
For how many can this song be sung, so few have made it
through, the love and long run
When you know that what you have is all you need
then the grace of what you know can set you free
with some luck and many prayers, and a vision you can share
It can lead you to the love,
Bring you to the love,
May it carry you through love and the long, long, run
A conscious cowboy keeps on growing, always one to speak his heart
A conscious cowboy's love is flowing,
just waiting for that right woman's spark
She's looking for a conscious cowboy, she can take or leave the hat
She's so ready for the dance of some cowboy romance
She's looking for a conscious, waiting for that conscious,
On to find her conscious cowboy
Like a Mother
I feel like a mother
when I cut the crust off your sandwich bread
careful to leave enough to hold some carefully planned nutrition
My heart is full when we talk together about spirit
curled under your feathery purple and red blankets
and a drooping white canopy
with the only fear being that you will soon figure out
what my unfulfilled longings are
before I do
I can hardly bear it when you are mean or quick to those who love you the
most
It’s like seeing an old movie about myself that I should have walked
out on
I feel pride when you leap into life with passion
and hunger to read and write to the rest of us
and instantly grasp the things
it took me more than forty years to figure out
I anguish that evil must be explained
before it explains itself and shatters the balance
of fear and knowing
I never cared for trading your sleep for mine
Only saw pain in the challenge to create energy from sleeplessness
making sleep more valuable than it deserves to be
I do miss having you at my breast
those peaceful brown eyes
wide and full as your mouth
I am not like my mother
perhaps more like hers but with more of a fight
I will continue to scribe the changes
and feed you with my power
and fruits of the earth
lend a hand to the new world, the millennium
with a sword of truth and a lifetime of poetry
ballads sung with the thrill of creation
love thick and bittersweet
with a promise
to keep the light on
- Debra L. Alt, “Like a Mother”, 1999
For Eternity
I ache with love sometimes
for music,
touch,
nourishment;
and I long to know
the source of
the lack of longing and aching.
I need to be by the water
to cool the heat of the longing
so it can better withstand
a body’s temperature
and distill the moment
the one just before the ache is realized
to capture it
with a thought
or with a pen,
for eternity
- “for eternity,“ July 2000
Piercing the Equilibrium
they are grown now- “piercing the equilibrium,“ July 2000
